Sunday, February 16^th, 2020

No Kidding

After Jill hung up, I opened my laptop. It had been a week since I had left my job to write.  I hadn’t written a line.

“I’m doing research,” I said to the dog. She stared at me, disbelieving. I opened my browsing history to show her.  The articles I’d read and the sites I visited didn’t seem to be related to recovery: “Basstrological Signs: Your Fishing Horoscope,”  “Today’s Ferret Farmer,” “SHTF Cooking: Recipes for the End of the World.”  The only site remotely tied to addiction was “Political Junkie” a website for addicted people wanting to run for office.

The dog looked at me, disappointment written all over her face.  “I know what you’re thinking,” I said. “You think I’m kidding myself. That I didn’t do anything all week.”  She yawned.

“Fine,” I said. “I’ve been frozen in the headlights, wondering if I really want to spend my last days writing. I’ve been stalling, but I’m done kidding myself. Tomorrow I’ll start writing.” I found a website on being your own blacksmith.

Today I won’t kid myself about what I’m doing.

2020 Vision ©2017 by Ken Montrose

2020 Vision is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.

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