Thursday, July 20, 2017

81. Choosing Rewards
The officer searched and handcuffed Jameston. He put him in the back of the car.  As they drove off, my heart sank.  I thought of all the things Jameston wouldn’t have control over in jail.  When he got out, the real struggle with powerlessness would begin. 
Two thoughts came to mind. Unlike Jameston I hadn’t eaten Xanny bars, or washed them down with a glass of wine. I wasn’t going to jail. I still got to decide when I’d eat, where I’d go, what I could do.  I’d earned some reward points.   Rewards not claimed tended to expire.  Today would be gone and with it the chance to celebrate the day.   I called my wife.
“Let’s eat somewhere nice tonight,” I said.
“Why?” my wife asked, probably wonder what the occasion might be.
“Because we can.”  And because life’s rewards have an expiration date.

Today I will celebrate just because I can.
Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
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Wednesday, July 19, 2017

80. No Problem So Bad
The next day I saw Jameston sitting on the bench at the end of the parking lot. When I got closer, I noticed a cut above his right eye. Two neatly folded but blood-stained handkerchiefs sat on the bench beside him.
“The doctor gave me these,” Jameston said. He pulled a bottle of Xanax bars from his shirt pocket. “You’re not supposed to mix them with alcohol, but after I took a couple, a glass of wine seemed like a good idea. I thought life couldn’t get any worse.”
“What happened?” I asked, a sense of sadness and dread washing over me.
We were interrupted by car horns on Route 19. “Yesterday, after my wife and I met with the divorce attorneys, I had an appointment with a neurologist.” He dabbed at the cut with another hanky.  “My wife had accused me of being a control freak.  The universe heard, and laughed. I’m about to lose control, of my muscles at least. The neurologist told me I have ALS.”
A police car pulled up. Before the officer said anything, Jameston stood up, said, “My ride to jail is here,” and walked over to the police car. “It’s my car wrapped around the street sign,” he added, gesturing toward the highway.
Today I will remember the slogan:
There is no problem so bad a drink cannot make it worse.

Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com
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Tuesday, July 18, 2017


79. A Great Day To Plant A Tree
Morgan said, “I know I’m on the right path.  But after we got home and my daughter went to bed, I spent the night beating myself up for getting addicted, for not going back to school, for not doing something when I first realized my marriage was in trouble.”
“I understand,” I said, “From time to time I still think about the opportunities I missed, and the stupid things I did. Water over the dam.  Best I can do is make the most of now.”
Morgan smiled. “My mother loved a Japanese saying.  The best time to plant a tree is twenty years ago, but the second best time is now.”
“From this day forward,” I said.

Today I will plant a tree.
Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

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Monday, July 17, 2017

78. They’re watching

The next day I asked Morgan about picking up her daughter.

“It was sad, Ken,” Morgan said. “She’s always been daddy’s little girl, but she wanted to come home with me.  I think my husband was shocked.”

“Why do you think she was so eager to go with you?”

“She had a hard time putting it into words, but you could tell she knew there was something wrong with her father. Kids know more than we think they do.”

“Do you think she knew something was wrong when you were getting high?” I asked

Morgan said, “At the time, I thought I kept it hidden, but now I think she must have known something was wrong.  Kids watch you, they really do.”

Today I’ll try to set a good example. Kids may be watching.

Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose

Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

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Sunday, July 16, 2017

77. What Can You Do?

The next day, Quinn asked me if I could watch his dog for a few days. I knew why.
I said, “Going to Canada to rescue Austin is way more than you should take on right now. On the other hand, Morgan is going to get her daughter today.  The little girl is with her father at a hotel in Carnegie.  Morgan doesn’t think her husband will give her any trouble, but she could use some company.  Gonna be an emotional day.   Think you could ride along?”
“I guess that’s all I can do,” Quinn said.
“Do what you can.”

Today I’ll do what I can.
Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

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Thursday, July 13, 2017

76. Grateful Not Hateful
“Cacophony,” I said to my laptop. “The word of the day is cacophony, a harsh discordance of sound.”
Every morning for a week a new group member had spent the time before group loudly complaining, using the f-bomb as her noun, verb, and adjective of choice.
That morning she was telling the group her effing cat coughed up an effing hairball just to effing spite her.  Then her mother, that effing witch, called to see how she was doing.  
Mostly I wanted to ask her what was really bothering her.   A small part of me wanted to tell her to shut up. Just shut up. Really, shut your pie hole.  Had I done so, she wouldn’t have, adding me to her list of effing  a’holes  instead.  
I sent The Other Ken an email offering to run a group on gratitude. Maybe it would help her brighten up.
Today I’ll be ‘grateful not hateful.’
Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

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Wednesday, July 12, 2017

75. Gift Horse
My phone rang – Brat Boy and Blondie wanted to meet me for lunch. This meant one of two things. They loved and missed me.  I left for work before they got up.  Blondie was working into the evening.  Brat Boy had either volleyball or basketball practice. Both were likely to be with their boyfriend/girlfriend when I got home from the gym.
It might also mean they were bored and too lazy to cook lunch for themselves.
I hesitated, thought ‘They’re two teenagers who want to have lunch with their dad. Who cares why? What’s that old expression, don’t look a gift horse in the mouth?’
“Meet you at the Meatball Emporium at 11:30,” I said to Blondie.

Today I won’t look a gift horse in the mouth.

Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

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Tuesday, July 11, 2017

74. Secretly Kind
As they were leaving group, I heard Holton tell Morgan, “Don’t worry, he’s not going to Canada.”
Morgan asked, “How can you be so sure?”
“A week ago I told him the shelter was full, and asked if he could keep a puppy until a cage was available.”
“I could keep some kittens for a while if that would help.”
Holton laughed. “I lied. We had cages open. I figured if he loved a dog he couldn’t take with him, he wouldn’t go. He already has a dozen puppy pictures on his phone.”
“You are devious but kind,” Morgan said. “I never would have guessed.
“Let’s keep this our secret,” Holton said.
Today I will be grateful for people who are secretly kind.
Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

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Monday, July 10, 2017

73. Intelligence Gathering
The next day Quinn told the group he was thinking of going to Canada to get Austin.  The group told him this was a bad idea, but Quinn said it was what his daddy would’ve done. “I know how bad these cults can be.  I gotta do something.”

“Your dad was Army, wasn’t he?” Holton asked.  Quinn nodded. “Bet he never went into a fight without a plan.  Bet that plan was based on information.  Bet he tried to find out what he was getting into before he got into it.”

“Not the same thing,” Quinn said.  He probably didn’t realize he was nodding ‘yes’ as he said it.  The Other Ken had them list situations they had rushed into.

“I married an idiot right out of high school,” Morgan said. “I wanted to get away from home. If I had known then what I know now…”

“Wish I’d done a little research before I bought that car,” another group member said, gesturing toward the oil-stained spot where his ride sat rusting.

“Wish I’d paid better attention in Health Class,” a young woman said. “I might have known you can get pregnant the first time, no matter what your boyfriend says.”

Today I won’t get into something until I know what I’m getting into.

Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

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Sunday, July 9, 2017

72. Hidden Pain
“How’s the leg?” I asked Daphne. “How bad is the pain?”
She said, “Truth be told, I was just about done with painkillers. It hurts, but I can manage. You know what stings? One of my nieces stealing my pills. The thief didn’t know I wasn’t in a lot of pain. And to think I’ve always trusted those brats.” She pounded her cane on the floor and added, “Drugs. Nothing leads to breaking someone’s trust like booze and drugs.”
Daphne, one of the toughest people I’d ever met, wiped a tear from her eye. Having her trust betrayed truly stung. My heart broke for her.  
Today I will not betray a trust.
Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com
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Thursday, July 6, 2017

71. Honest Mistake
“Okay, you can yell at me,” Daphne said when I walked into the AA meeting.
“You’re a mean, miserable, old lady,” I said, laughing.
“Don’t you want to know why you should yell at me?” Daphne demanded. I shrugged. She said,
“My huge addict family visited me. Somebody stole the pills from my surgery I left in my medicine cabinet. I could kick myself for being so careless.”
I shook my head. “Nah, I’m not gonna yell. Sounds like an honest mistake. If they were sitting out, or you kept them months after your surgery, I might.”
Daphne hugged me. “Better a miserable old lady than a middle-age jackass,” she said with a smile.
Today I won’t kick myself for honest mistakes
Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

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Wednesday, July 5, 2017

70. Can You Hit the Curve Ball?
The next day Morgan told the group her husband had taken off with her daughter. She said, “Mind you this is not a Lifetime movie in the making. This is an idiot texting me from a motel to say he can’t be separated from our daughter. If I want her back, I have to take him back too. Talk about life throwing you a curve ball.”
“What are you going to do?”  Jameston asked.
“I’ll give him a day or two to spend with our daughter, and then I’ll cancel his credit cards.”  Morgan smiled and added, “I’ll put ‘being clear-headed’ on my gratitude list.  It’s much easier to hit the curve when you’re not eating Vikes like they were jelly beans.”
Today I’ll be grateful I’m clear-headed.
Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.

Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

69. Many Do Recovery
Quinn left. I checked my email. Two agencies were looking for presentations on the opioid epidemic.  Both agencies asked if I could present something a little different. I laughed to myself – over the years I’d developed a reputation for being a little different. I suggested a discussion on how friends, families, and professionals needed to take care of themselves, followed by a reminder that people do get better.  In short order, both agencies agreed on the topic.
I said out loud, “With so many illnesses you hear about the people who die or create chaos, you don’t hear about the people who cope, maybe even thrive.  You don’t hear enough about the people who overcome their problems.”
Today I will remind myself – people do get better.
Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

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Sunday, July 2, 2017

68. Throwing A Good Today After A Bad Yesterday
“How’d you end up here?” I asked Quinn.
He said, “I tried to drink away the memories of the Guild. That’s what we called that cult, the Guild. Never worked.  I’d wake up from a blackout with no recollection of the night before, but crystal clear recall of the Guild.  Later, I learned alcohol gets in the way of forming new memories, but you gotta make it to late stage alcoholism to erase the old ones.”
“I’m glad you stopped when you did.”
“Getting sober saved my life, but accepting my past has given me peace,” Quinn said.  “You know how they say ‘throwing good money after bad’?  Wasting a good today fretting about a bad yesterday is the same thing.  I’m done with it.”
I won’t throw a good Today after a bad yesterday.
Time for a Change ©2017 by Ken Montrose
Time for a Change is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.
Other works by Ken Montrose are available at: www.greenbriartraining.com

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