Thursday, July 28, 2022

Fawlty Towers 2

 Dumb Idea for a Gratitude List

Brat Boy was doing laundry.  I asked him how his internship was going. The company he worked for built electronic components for hydro-electric dams.

“Nothing my team built failed to start, shorted out, caught fire, shocked anyone, or flooded a town today,” he said with a smile.

“You could really flood a town?” I asked.

“That’s the reason one of our competitors will never work in Chile again.”

I had done some dumb things in my day, but I’d never flooded an entire town.

“You’ve given me an idea for another gratitude list,” I said. “All the dumb things I didn’t do.”

“How about the dumb things you almost did?”

“Top of the list,” I answered.

 

Today I’ll be grateful for all the dumb things I didn’t do.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.

Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

Tuesday, July 26, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

 

Rotten Kids

When I got home the neighborhood kids were playing next door.


“We’re in your yard,” a little girl said in a singsong voice as she darted onto our lawn, sister in tow.


“You rotten kids better get out of my yard,” I growled, pretending to be angry.


“We’re gonna climb your tree!”


“Go home, you horrible slugrats!”


I put down my laptop and chased them as they ran away laughing.


Dr. Deb was sitting on the deck. She smiled at me. “Some people have a glass of wine, some people turn on the TV. You chase kids when you get home.”


“Everybody should put a little silliness into their day,” I said. “Takes your mind off your troubles. Keeps you from taking yourself too seriously.”

 

Today I’ll put a little silliness into my day.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

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Monday, July 25, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

Out of the Pit/Up the Mountain

I thought of Abigail’s childhood. She’d had no say in how she was raised. Her father had tossed her into a pit with her crazy aunt and fled to Europe.


Abigail had been difficult at times, but I had admired her struggle to climb out.  


That afternoon we had a speaker describe how’d he built a business from the ground up.  Many of the lessons he’d learned fit well with recovering from addiction, especially persistence.


I admired the way he’d climbed the mountain to success.


“Where you start is not the point,” I said to DD the bunny later that day. “It’s the climbing that counts.”

 

Today I admire the climber, no matter their starting point.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

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Friday, July 22, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

 

Life On Life’s Terms

The next day, a pale, distraught Randy told us Abigail had died in her sleep the night before.


I was stunned. Abigail had thought she had about a year to live.


In the week since her diagnosis, she had eaten her first taco from a truck, asked someone for a date, demanded a raise, used a public restroom, argued with someone online, came to work without the top button of her blouse buttoned, and driven ten miles an hour over the speed limit.


I was sad, but happy she’d at least tried a few new things, lived a little more. I wondered what else had been on her list.


The best I could make of the situation was to follow her example, live a little more.

 

Today I will live a little more.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

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Thursday, July 21, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

Time Takes Time

I was surprised The Preacher had thought I could sway a judge.


Did he imagine his case would be dismissed based on a letter from someone the judge had never heard of, whose opinion had no bearing on the matter?


“The Preacher’s one of those people who expect problems years in the making to be solved in an instant,” I said to the cat. “With very little effort.”


He purred in agreement.


“Time Takes Time,” I said, quoting a slogan I had hated when I first got sober. “And you gotta put in the work.”  


I thought of examples.


A gift didn’t always buy true forgiveness, it just blunted anger. Careers weren’t restored just by going to rehab. Losing weight took time and effort.


As I stroked the cat, I thought of my own experience. “Getting comfortable in my own skin without alcohol was a process, not an event.”

 

Today I’ll remember Time Takes Time, and effort.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

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Wednesday, July 20, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

Understanding and Enabling

My phone buzzed. I didn’t recognize the name at first. I almost blocked the caller.


“Oh no,” I muttered.  The Preacher from my AA homegroup.


I debated faking my own death, but answered the call instead.


The Preacher faced a legal jam because of two years unpaid child support. His ex had been willing to renegotiate their settlement, but he’d put off meeting with her.


I understood. After much delay, I had written my master’s thesis on procrastination.  


The Preacher said, “So, can you write a letter to the judge saying my past heavy drinking makes it hard for me to keep up with legal matters?”


“Trust me,” I said, “I understand procrastination. But, I’m not gonna write a letter to enable you to dodge your responsibilities.”


When I finally got him off the phone, I thought about the difference between understanding and enabling.


I might get the appeal, even the compulsion, someone might have to do something not in their best interests.  That didn’t mean I should help them keep doing it.


 

Today I’ll separate understanding from enabling.


 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.

Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

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Tuesday, July 19, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

 

Unfair and Inspirational

I thought about Abigail on the way home. Life had been cruel to her almost from the start. She had finally found peace in what were probably her final days.


My thoughts drifted back and forth between the unfairness of life and the inspiration I could draw from Abigail’s courage and acceptance.


“Life will always be unfair,” I said out loud. “I can’t change that. Best I can do is draw inspiration from the people like Abigail who refuse to let life conquer their spirit.”   


 

Today I’ll accept life is unfair, and turn my focus to the inspirational.

 


Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

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Monday, July 18, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

 

Time Sheet

The son of a local celebrity had stopped in to speak to the people in rehab. He’d gone through the program the year before and stayed sober.


“Proud of you kid,” I said, shaking his hand.


He smiled, but said, “My dad isn’t.  He told me I’m still an embarrassment.”


“Ouch.”


The kid shrugged. “I’m proud of me. Working on another good time sheet.”


“What do you mean?” I asked.


“At night I picture myself turning in a time sheet detailing all I did that day.  Today I’m gonna turn in another one I can be proud of.”


I thought I’d try to do the same.

 


Today I’ll turn in a ‘time sheet’ I can be proud of.

 


Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

Friday, July 15, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

A Moment

“How bad is it?” I asked Abigail.


“Bad enough,” she said. “With chemo, radiation, and surgery, I’d have about a 15% chance of surviving two years.”


I winced.


To my surprise, Abigail smiled.


“It’s not so bad. At this very moment, I’m not in any pain, my vision is clear, I can eat solid food.”


She took a sip of tea and added, “Oh, and I have bladder AND bowel control. I do, at least for this very moment.”


The way she said it made me smile.


“At this very moment,” I muttered, thinking I’d save myself a lot of worry and sadness by focusing on the moment.

 

Today I will live in the moment.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.

Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

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Thursday, July 14, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

Kites and Cancer

“Would you say I’ve mellowed?” Abigail asked me as we ate lunch in my office, something we’d never done before.


I said, “From the time we met? Quite a bit.”


“But you still thought I had a long way to go?”


I nodded reluctantly, not wanting to hurt her feelings.


“Before I knew I had cancer, I felt like I had set the change in motion, even though breaking from my crazy aunt’s influence was a grind.”


“Setting change in motion is like flying a kite,” I said. “You have to run with it, until you catch the wind.”


“Once you catch the wind, things get easier.”


“But you gotta set good things in motion first,” I agreed. “You gotta run with it.”


 

Today I’ll set something good in motion.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.

Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S
 

Wednesday, July 13, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

Decisions, Decisions

I got to work late the next day. As I walked into the staff meeting, I noticed everybody but Abigail looked angry.


“What’s going on?” I asked, thinking it probably involved the merger. I was wrong.


Abigail said, “I’ve decided not to get chemo.”


Randy, Katy, and Dana immediately started arguing with her, all of them, all at once.

 

Abigail looked at me. I said, “I wish you would get chemo, but it’s clearly your decision to make.”


Nobody but Abigail liked my answer, and the discussion got even louder.


“You can make yourself crazy not accepting how powerless you are over other people’s decisions,” I muttered.

 

Today I’ll accept people make their own decisions.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

#addictionawareness #dailymessage #inspiration #odaat #recoveryposse #recoveryispossible
 

Tuesday, July 12, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

 

The Three R’s

I wanted to flip him off. I wanted to get right up on his rear tire, just to piss him off.


Instead I thought of the three ‘Rs’.


Retreat, Rethink, Respond.


 I dropped back a little, caught my breath, and came up with a better plan.


I waited for the next hill. 


He slowed.  I dropped back a little more, then pedaled frantically, building up speed.


In the friendliest voice I could muster, I said, “Passing on the left,” and blew by him.


Maybe I was projecting, but I imagined he didn’t think I deserved to be on the same trail as his carbon fiber, $10k, Maserati of a bike.  


Proving him wrong had been the best way to respond to his miserable attitude.


 

Today I’ll remember the three R’s: Retreat, Rethink, Respond.


 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

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Monday, July 11, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

 

And when we were wrong...

The next day I pedaled onto the bike trail.


A few yards into the trail, I drifted toward the middle as I checked my watch.


“Passing on your left!” A guy on an expensive bike said, his voice dripping anger.


My least favorite part of the Twelve Steps, ‘…and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it,’ popped into my head.  


He was a jerk, but I had been hogging the trail, even if unintentionally.


 “Sorry,” I said as he passed.  He shot me a look.


‘Hope you get a flat,’ I thought. Admitting and being happy about it were two different things.


 

Today I will promptly admit when I’m wrong.


 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

#addictionawareness #dailymessage #inspiration #odaat #recoveryposse #recoveryispossible


Friday, July 8, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

 

Green Hair

Epiphany’s phone buzzed. She made a face like she’d just stepped in something while barefoot. She tapped the phone a few times and looked up at me.


“Drunken mistake,” she said. “Blocked him.”


I said, “Don’t you wish there was an app on your phone to block all your past mistakes?”


Epiphany scrolled through her phone to show me a picture of a drunk woman with pink, green, and orange hair. She wore a dress leaving little to the imagination.


“They sent me home from the prom, with good reason. Wish I could block that night from my memory.”


I told her about the time I’d decided I wanted a water fountain in my dorm room.


I thought I had been lucky. None of my past mistakes haunted me. I knew many people who weren’t so fortunate.


 

Today I’ll be grateful for past mistakes that don’t haunt me.


 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S


 

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Thursday, July 7, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

 Personal Mythology

Some speakers are funny, others inspiring. Some will almost bring you to tears describing the dark places their addiction took them.


The woman who shared that night made her three DUIs, two near death experiences, and stays in the county jail, seem like a good time.


“Beware of personal mythology,” I said to Epiphany afterward.  She asked me what I meant.


“You take a negative event, replace the original emotion, make it sound funny, and tell the story over and over, until it becomes mythical.”


Epiphany understood. “You almost die in a car accident, scared out of your mind. Later you laugh about it with friends.”


I nodded. “Personal mythology makes doing stupid and dangerous things seem like fun.”

 

Today I’ll beware of personal mythology.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.

Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

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Wednesday, July 6, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

 Walking, Smoking, Younger Women

Epiphany strolled in with Mojo on a leash. He looked a little thinner.


“We’ve been walking,” Epiphany explained. “The vet said he could start, even at his age.”


“My dad started painting in his eighties,” I said. “He loved it.”


Talmadge said, “My wife quit smoking when she hit 65.”


Margaret The Newbie sat down and said, “My grandfather was 70 the day Grandma died. He started chasing much younger women a week after the funeral.”


I shot Margaret a look, and said, “I guess today is never too late to start something good.”

 

Today is not too late to start something good.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

#addictionawareness #dailymessage #inspiration #odaat #recoveryposse #recoveryispossible

Tuesday, July 5, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

 

Acceptance, Radioactive Alligators, and the Bogey Basher

Later that week I sat next to Talmadge at an AA meeting.


“You really moving?” I asked, knowing the answer.


“In a month,” he said.  “I signed the paperwork two days ago.”


“So, we have a month to change your mind.”


Talmadge laughed. “I put down my non-refundable deposit. You won’t change my mind.”


I spun tales about radioactive alligators, mosquitoes the size of tennis balls, and the Bogey Basher, a serial killer who hid in sand traps. Talmadge just laughed more.


“Gonna miss you,” I said finally, trying to accept what I could not change with as much grace as I could muster.

 

Today I’ll try to accept the things I cannot change with as much grace as I can muster.

 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.

Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S

 

#addictionawareness #dailymessage #inspiration #odaat #recoveryposse #recoveryispossible


Friday, July 1, 2022

Fawlty Showers 2

Enough is Not Enough

A woman who’d been court ordered to treatment in lieu of jail had decided not to participate in treatment. She attended groups, but said nothing, doing just enough to meet the conditions of her probation.


“I’m here, not using drugs,” she told Dana. “That’s enough.”


A week after she left treatment, I read she got arrested as part of retail theft ring. 


“Doing just enough is never enough to change,” I said to DD the bunny.


 

Today I’ll remember doing just enough is never enough to change.


 

Fawlty Showers 2 is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.


Other works by Ken Montrose are available at:

                     www.greenbriartraining.com  

                     https://www.amazon.com/-/e/B001K8MG0S