We were sitting on the couch that night when Dr. Deb asked
me what my training was about.
“Reminds me of when we were dating” Dr. Deb said, resting
her head on my shoulder.
“How so?” I asked.
“You’d torture yourself over past mistakes, most of them
you’d made while you were drinking.”
“I’d wasted a lot of opportunities.”
“You’re doing it again,” Dr. Deb said, shooting me a look.
“Sorry,” I said. “Bad habit.”
“And you were always convinced good times were just about to
end.”
I nodded. “Yeah, but I’ve learned to stop as soon as I
start dwelling on the past, or worrying about the future.”
“How?”
“I have a reset button. I list ways my life is different, how
I’m different. I make myself think about
all the things I’d worried about that never happened, and all the things that did
happen that I got through.”
“It helped,” she said.
“Not at first, but I kept at it. Couldn’t tell you how many
times I made those lists. Sometimes you gotta hit your mind’s reset button
again and again.”
Today
I’ll hit reset as many times as I need to.
Fawlty Showers 2
is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you
might know is purely coincidental.
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