A Fourth Without A Fifth

The next day was the Fourth of July – Independence Day.  For most people it was a chance to have a few beers and relax. For recovering people the Fourth was a chance to not have a few beers, but relax, free and independent of the misery drinking brought us. 

As I sat on my deck thinking about it, I decided the worst was the morning after when your mind wandered and wondered. I made a list of the wonderings that plague people in addiction.

Wondering where your car might be, where you might be, and who he or she might be.  Wondering where your pants might be.

Wondering if you’re going to prison, if prison is that bad, and if you can cut a deal. Wondering if he or she will ever forgive you. 

Wondering what to say to your boss and co-workers on Monday, if you’ll get fired, if you’ll go viral on YouTube.  Wondering if suicide might be your best option.   

Wondering whether it’s 7:00 am or 7:00 pm, where the day went, and why they won’t leave you the &^%# alone, just sitting in your chair, not bothering anybody. (Knowing they hurt for you and the life you’re wasting.)

The list went on.

Today I’ll be grateful I don’t have to wonder.

Dogged Determination ©2018 & 2019 by Ken Montrose

Dogged Determination is a work of fiction. Any similarity between the characters and anyone you might know is purely coincidental.

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